One of my favourite things in the world is the ocean. I have always loved it and always will. It soothes my soul, and not for its rhythmic sounds, but for it sheer raw power. The ocean is beautiful but if you mess with it, it will take you out. It has mysteries too deep for us to ever know. Dangers that lurk under its surface. The sheer magnitude is staggering. Every crashing wave is a demonstration of its strength. It can be incredibly useful, but also deadly.
The power and strength of the ocean draws me because when I was young, I was vulnerable and hurt deeply. I seek protection – even as an adult. The result of my pain was that I became a fighter,but it never changes that inside I still hurt and am still vulnerable. In fact I am a huge believer in the wholehearted living that Brene Brown talks about, which is essentially about living vulnerably. It’s not building a castle so no one can ever hurt you again, but about having people around me so that when I am hurt they can help me. I need people who are strong in my life because I walk through hard places.
It’s also why I am drawn more to Jesus when I read that He is the kind of man who took the time to make a whip and throw out those who were exploiting his people. Yes, He’s a God of mercy but also, just as much, He is a God of justice. He’s strong and powerful. That’s my Jesus.
But Jesus is not just that way. He welcomed little children, he washed the feet of his disciples, and he made sure his mother would be cared for once He was gone. He is tender and nurturing. It’s not that I deny this side of Jesus, but it’s not what draws me to him. Others who were hurt like me became timid, not fighters, and they can’t relate to my strong Jesus. Jesus’ tenderness is what draws them. But Jesus is perfectly balanced that way and it doesn’t matter what side I am seeing of him, He is both those ways all the time.
We forget that Jesus is more- SO much more, than just what we want him to be. We want him to fit in our box. We want him to not allow a trans person in our bathroom but we forget that He’s also the Jesus that doesn’t want little children crying and peeing their pants because they can’t go to the boys bathroom at their teaches insistence, but they can’t go to the girls bathroom because the girls won’t let them. This is happening and its destroying children from the inside. There are two sides to every coin and what I want to say more than anything here is that He’s not just your Jesus. Take your glasses off and ask to see Him from a different perspective. It may not be the Jesus you want to see but He’s so much more than we can ever comprehend. He is God. Deeper than the deepest ocean and with far more mysteries.