I am a licensed and ordained pastor.
I wrestle with my faith.
I struggle with temptation.
Every person has a calling. I have the title of pastor because part of my calling includes leading people.
Leading others doesn’t mean I don’t have difficult times, or don’t ever question things anymore.
I actually think it means I have a duty and obligation to question things more, on behalf of the people that I lead.
We all have a lot of different options every day. Even though we hardly recognize the fact, we are often at crossroads.
Each road will take you somewhere.
Some roads lead to challenges,
some to character development,
some to harm and
some to many other things.
Each and every decision we make takes us down a road.
Recently I felt I was standing at crossroads, and took a good long look at each one.
Some were very, very tempting.
Some were even familiar, based on habits and patterns from long ago.
I did look long and hard.
Maybe even with moments of longing, because in some ways those roads are easier, if only for a time, and familiarity breeds comfortability, even if it involves dysfunction.
I realized I was like a vacuum plug.
The cord gets pulled by pain and life events, and it starts to detach from the wall.
The vacuum motor starts to sputter.
It’s not as effective at its job.
In order to be useful it must remain plugged in.
I am a light.
I am not a light source.
If I disconnect from the power supply, my light flickers and starts to fade. I have to remain connected if I am to shine brightly.
Being connected also helps me pick up my feet and chose the harder but better road, because I am not who I used to be.
With each step I am being transformed into the likeness of my Savior.
Hopefully others will follow, because I am a pastor.